Quest
Sequel to Maintaining
By Pixelgoddess
Summary: Maintaining sequel. Frieza has caused some incredible issues for
the Saiyans to overcome, but they are trying. What will it take for them to finally become
mates? Yaoi, Yuri. Goku x Vegeta, Chichi x Rezu (OC)
Disclaimer: If I owned it, dont you think there would have been more decent
girls to write about?
Warnings: *snickers* Whaddya got? Sex. Rape and its aftermath. Violence. Bad words.
Gay marriage. Krillin-bashing. Dyke Chichi. Straight Gohan. Confused Dende. Smart-ass
Piccolo. I think that covers it for now.
--------------------
Chapter 36 - Trust
Goku looked up into the ice-blue eyes of his lover, not resisting as Vegetas hands
gripped his throat more tightly. He couldnt do this anymore. He wanted to be mated
so badly he had pushed Vegeta too far, too fast. His prince didnt trust him.
Vegeta didnt trust him. Somehow the pain of the ki burning his skin wherever their
bodies made contact was nothing compared to the ache in his heart when he finally admitted
that to himself.
Vegeta didnt trust him. He loved Goku, but he didnt trust him. He tried to
reach a hand up, to brush it over his princes cheek, but he didnt seem to be
able to move enough to touch him. It was okay he was too tired and weak to fight
this anymore.
Maybe maybe later Vegeta would find him in hell. Maybe they could be together
there. He just couldnt go on anymore the bond was too hard to maintain like
this.
He was crying he could feel the tears sliding down his face, turning his graying
vision into a silvery fog. He would have liked to kiss his prince one more time, but at
least he could die while Vegeta was touching him. He had always liked his hands
they always felt like fire to him. ::I love
::
---------------------
Piccolo frantically raced to the house, trying to interpret the changes in ki. He was used
to the spikes and dips of the Saiyans normal activities, but this was different. It
couldnt be the Kais, could it? How could they have made this attack without someone
noticing? Vegetas ki was skyrocketing, but Gokus ki was dropping rapidly.
==Damn it, Goku. Hold on. Hold on.==
He arrived in time to see the wall of the capsule house explode and Vegeta rocketing into
the sky. He almost followed the prince, ready to help him fight the enemy, but Gokus
nearly non-existent ki held him back. For the time being, Vegeta was on his own.
Goku? he asked, entering through the rubble, trying to see through the dust
that still filled the air. Come on, Goku. Talk to me. A step or two brought
him to the bed where the Saiyan was stretched out on his back, barely breathing, burns and
bruises covering his exposed neck and chest.
Fuck, he cursed, digging for a senzu. What in the hell was wrong with Vegeta,
leaving Goku helpless and injured like this? Whoever did this could return. He breathed a
sigh of relief when he found one and propped up Gokus head so he could feed it to
him. ==Damned pain in the ass Saiyans. Cant stay out of trouble for a minute.==
He watched the bean work, still fascinated at the way the magic made injuries fade away as
if they never existed. Goku finally started to breathe normally, but Piccolo was concerned
to see he was still crying.
Goku, he asked, helping the Saiyan sit up, What happened? Who attacked
you? Was it the Kais?
Goku looked at him with dead eyes before he shook his head. No, he whispered
in a voice almost too soft to hear. It was Vegeta.
Piccolo stared at him in shock. Vegeta nearly killed Goku again? Was it the
brainwashing? Did that get triggered somehow?
Goku stared down at his lap, playing with his tail. No. It was
He- he
doesnt trust me.
Dont be ridiculous, Goku. Of course he does. He loves you so much it makes him
stupid sometimes.
Piccolo thought he had accomplished something when Goku almost smiled but it vanished in
an instant, leaving his friend looking sadder than he had ever seen him.
He might love me, he said hoarsely, But he doesnt trust me. I
dont think he ever will. Goku looked at him, no evidence remaining of the
usually happy man he knew. His friend looked utterly lost and he didnt know what he
could do to help. I tried, Piccolo, I really tried. I should have listened to Rouba
she said to be patient to wait. But I couldnt. Vegeta wanted to wish
the bond away to protect me and I got scared. I though I would lose him.
You wont lose him, Goku. And maybe he is right it has been making you
act strangely lately. The bond is from the Kais fusion and you two are going to be
mated eventually. Wont that be an even stronger bond?
Dont you get it, Piccolo? We cant be mated. Not safely. Vegeta
doesnt trust me. If you take away the bond Ill have nothing, Goku said
desperately.
Goku
Maybe
maybe I should just let him claim me. Who cares if he will own me? There
are worse things than being a- a- pet. It wouldnt be the first time. Vegeta might
not trust me, but hell be good to me stay with me at least. It couldnt
be any worse than this.
Piccolo couldnt believe he was hearing this it was as if Goku had given up.
This was so unlike him he wondered if he was seeing a previously unknown part of
Vegetas personality. Goku, you have to quit thinking that way. Vegeta
doesnt want to own you hed never agree to it. You are just depressed
because of changes caused by the bond, thats all.
You dont understand. No one understands. Ive let Vegeta feel everything
I do how much I trust him, how much I love him
and it hasnt worked. I
opened up my side of the bond totally so he could see how I feel, but it didnt do
any good. It just made me
Piccolo was stunned when Goku suddenly wrapped his arms around him in a crushing hug,
desperate for comfort. Piccolo sighed inwardly, cursing the damn prince for causing this,
but didnt push him away.
What do I do, Piccolo? Goku pleaded. It didnt work he still
doesnt trust me. He thinks thought he did, but it isnt true. He
doesnt trust anyone, including me. And until he does, we cant mate.
Piccolo hadnt realized the extent of the agony Goku was voluntarily going through.
He was deliberately letting himself suffer in order to help Vegeta. Everyone was always so
worried about how the prince was doing, being careful not to get him upset. As a result,
they didnt pay enough attention to how Goku was reacting to all of this. Had Vegeta
finally ruined everything for both of them?
Goku, he asked hesitantly, Do you still want to be with Vegeta? Even
after what he did?
Y- yes, Goku said, his voice muffled against Piccolos chest. I- I
love him, Piccolo. I just- I just wish he could learn to trust me.
-----------------------
Piccolo flew towards where Vegeta was, getting angrier with each passing minute. He had
spent a long time with Goku, finally convincing him to tell what Rouba had wanted kept
from Vegeta until he was ready. To hell with that. As far as he was concerned, the bastard
was way past ready. This wasnt even about mating anymore it was about keeping
Goku alive and hopefully happy. To do that the Saiyans had to stay together. He
didnt care about promises some old woman had extracted he was going to try to
fix this fucking disaster.
Goku was a mess he was depressed and nearly suicidal, although most of that was due
to Vegetas past influencing him through the bond. This wasnt really Goku he
was dealing with it was Vegeta after returning from hell the second time. Piccolo
wasnt surprised to learn he hadnt fought back at all when Vegeta was
strangling him. His personality had shifted so much he was like the post-Buu Vegeta, his
power and confidence waning.
It didnt help that the younger Saiyan had done it to himself. The bond hadnt
been as unstable before Goku deliberately tried to use it in order to help Vegeta mate
with him. He had done it for the right reasons, but he didnt realize how much it
would backfire, leaving him vulnerable.
Now Vegeta had practically shut down his side of the bond, which Goku said hurt. Piccolo
was sure it was less than the pain he would feel if the distraught prince exposed him to
what he was experiencing now. Piccolo had felt his ki surging, probably blowing up the
surrounding landscape.
At Kamis suggestion he convinced Goku to try to control his side, at least
temporarily. The old man believed it would give the Saiyans a chance to deal with what had
happened without feeling each others influence as much. Piccolo hoped it would give
him back more of the Goku he knew, at least long enough for him to talk some sense into
Vegeta. Goku was too tired and depressed to put up much of an argument, letting Piccolo
help him meditate in order to get some control over his shattered emotions.
Gohan had called several times; frantically demanding to know what was going on and
threatening to come there. He almost accepted, seriously considering having the boy stay
with his father. Goku refused, however, insisting he didnt want anyone else to see
him like this. Piccolo relented, telling Gohan to let everyone know Goku would be okay.
When he finally did leave, Goku was much calmer and almost himself. The Saiyan insisted he
wouldnt do anything stupid; he just wanted to be alone and think. Piccolo still
wasnt sure it was a good idea to leave him alone, so he told Gohan to stay handy and
keep an eye on his fathers ki.
The Saiyan had ignored the rubble strewn throughout the room and pulled a chair Piccolo
recognized as Vegetas to the window. Goku sat there, cross-legged, staring at the
forest while he played with a capsule. Please Piccolo make him come back to
me. Make him understand, he whispered.
When he reached Vegeta, evidence of his reaction to his moment of insanity was evident.
The prince was standing in the middle of a crater, surrounded by leveled rock formations
and splintered trees. Vegetas power had returned to normal, but Piccolo didnt
think he had moved.
Piccolo landed in front of him and frowned at bastards scowl. He didnt
hesitate, punching the Saiyan in the jaw, sending a shocked Vegeta flying. He stalked over
to where Vegeta was picking himself up and hit him again, this time kicking him in his
unprotected gut.
What in the fuck are you trying to do, Namek? Vegeta growled. Get
yourself killed?
Sure, why not? he snarled. Thats what you do to your friends
isnt it? Wait for the right moment and kill them? I might as well be next.
This was risky possibly fatal but if he could get Vegeta angry enough to
stop feeling sorry for himself and think about Goku he might have a chance. He had gone
through too much to get the Saiyans together to just sit by and watch the idiot prince
throw it all away.
Vegeta froze. Kakorr? Hes?
Hes alive, no thanks to you, Piccolo growled. It wasnt bad
enough that you nearly killed him, but then you had to leave him like that? If I
hadnt come he would have died. Do you realize that, you asshole?! He would have
died!
No, Vegeta insisted. No.
Yes, you selfish fucking bastard. The best thing to ever happen to you and
you would just throw it away. What in the fuck is wrong with you? Do you realize do
you have any concept of what he has done for you? What he has gone through for you? Do you
even pay attention to what is coming through that damned bond?
Vegeta just stared at him in confusion, pissing Piccolo off even more. The next kick sent
the bewildered Saiyan flying a satisfying distance. Piccolo stood there, waiting for him
to return.
Get your fucking head out of your fucking ass, Vegeta. Youve been coddled and
babied enough. Think about Goku for a change he needs you.
I do think about him.
Bullshit.
Ive had enough of your crap, Namek. I dont have to listen to this,
Vegeta grumbled, turning away.
Piccolo hissed in annoyance and stretched an arm, dragging the complaining Saiyan back.
Yes you do, asshole. You cant run away from this. If you want any chance of
saving your relationship and staying with Goku you are going to listen to what I have to
say.
Vegeta seemed to sag then. How can go back? After what I did
Because hes in love with you, moron. He will take you back under one
condition.
Vegeta stared at him dubiously.
Its true, Vegeta. I think youve been given more chances than you deserve
but if he is willing to give you another one then you damned well better take it.
How could he? Damn it, Piccolo I almost killed him, he said, hanging
his head.
Who knows how he thinks? Its a mystery to me. Frankly, as far as you are
concerned I think he is an idiot. Then again, Im not the one in love with you. This
is your last chance, Vegeta. If you fuck this up, I dont think you are going to get
another opportunity.
What do I have to do?
He told you, Vegeta. You have to trust him.
I- Vegeta began.
Piccolo shook his head, interrupting him. Just words, Vegeta. You both know they
arent true. You have to pass a test now. Your word isnt good enough.
What- Vegeta swallowed. What kind of test?
You only get one chance at this, Vegeta. Dont go back if you arent
willing, because if you start and back out in the middle you cant do it over
again.
Just tell me what the damn test is!
-----------------
Vegeta sat at the edge of the cliff, feet dangling over the edge, fingering the coin
around his neck. It had been nearly a week nearly a week since he had almost killed
Kakorr. He didnt dare return Piccolo had warned him because he
wasnt ready yet and part of him was worried he would never be.
He hadnt even been aware of what he was doing then he had tried to explain to
Piccolo that he had just reacted to what he saw as a threat. After he said that, there had
been a moment when he thought the Namek was going to hit him again.
When Piccolo had told him the test he had laughed at first. How ridiculously simple. Then
he started to think about it and the memories it brought to the surface. And the
more he thought about it, the more he realized how difficult it this would really be.
Rouba had seen inside him and understood what he had not. Vegeta had honestly thought he
trusted Kakorr. And he did more than he trusted anyone else. He trusted Kakorr to
do what he requested and to stop anytime Vegeta told him to. It wasnt enough.
He hadnt even comprehended how little he trusted Kakorr until he realized his hands
were tight around his throat, crushing the breath out of him. Kakorr hadnt fought
back or resisted at all, just staring up at him with glistening brown eyes. Vegeta had
been shocked to realize what he had done, recoiling in horror from the limp body of his
lover.
Piccolo was right. He was an asshole a bastard. He should have stayed but instead
he blasted a hole in the wall and run away like a coward. He wasnt rational then,
unable to tell if the faint ki of his lover was real or imagined. Until Piccolo showed up
and confirmed it, he wasnt sure if Kakorr was still alive.
Now that the Namek had explained what Kakorr was trying to do with the bond he began to
really appreciate how much he was loved. Vegeta was annoyed he had tried something so
dangerous without telling him, but he understood why Kakorr had felt it necessary. If he
had known, he would have resisted, making Kakorrs efforts worthless.
Kakorr had honestly believed he could transfer his trust through the bond. Vegeta could
have told him it wouldnt be that easy he would have resisted without
realizing it. He seriously doubted such a trait could be given to someone else.
This test left him in a difficult position. He knew what he had to do, but he didnt
know if he was capable of it. Memories of Frieza kept rising up, triggering bursts of fear
he could barely contain. He kept telling himself his concern was unfounded after
all, Kakorr cared about him and loved him with a power that was almost breath-taking.
Kakorr wouldnt use him like others had in the past.
He knew if circumstances were different if their positions were switched
Kakorr wouldnt have hesitated for an instant. The hunt for the biyaku was only one
example of Kakorrs faith in him. He could give up complete control to Vegeta in an
instant, letting himself be restrained by words alone. A test like this wouldnt have
been necessary for him Piccolo said Kakorrs test was being able to put
his prince in this position knowing how much it would frighten him at first.
Vegeta scowled. Kakorr was stronger than he was in so many things he had no doubt
his lover would find the strength to do what needed to be done.
He hadnt even been able to argue with the damn Namek about his reaction he
was right. Vegeta was afraid. It didnt matter he had no reason to be he
couldnt get beyond his past and let himself totally trust Kakorr. And if he
didnt, he would lose him forever.
-----------------
Goku sat on the front steps, staring at the forest, not really listening to Chichi as she
chattered about the babys room while he fed her ki. The capsule in the pocket of his
jeans seemed to be a weight reminding him of Vegeta.
Goku? she asked, waving her hand in front of his face. Are you even
listening to me?
He turned and looked at her with a sad smile. It has to work, he said in a
soft voice.
Whatever it is, Im sure it will, hon, she said, taking his hand.
Vegeta will come back.
What if he doesnt? he asked mournfully.
He will, honey. He loves you too much to stay away. Besides, he will have to come
back to see his daughter.
Son.
Chichi chuckled, Daughter.
He shrugged and turned back to the forest again. He could faintly feel Vegeta through the
bond, enough to know he was alive. Something about his prince was changing, but he
honestly didnt know if that was good or bad. Goku was looking forward to and
dreading his return so much could go wrong now.
Vegeta had tried to contact him once with their telepathy, but he refused to respond
even though it pained Goku, his prince had to do this on his own.
Hes only been gone a few days, Goku. You know how he is. He just needs more
time.
Its been a week. Chichi didnt know what had happened no one
but Piccolo did. As far as he knew, everyone just thought they had fought, although he was
sure Gohan suspected there was more to it. He had tried to keep things as normal as
possible, training and sparring with Piccolo and his sons. Fortunately, Piccolo or Gohan
would run interference when Trunks and Goten started to ask too many questions. He spoke
only when he needed to, much of his energy focused towards keeping his side of the bond
stable. Chichi knew something was wrong when he stopped eating and kept trying to feed
him.
A week is nothing in Vegeta-time. Give him a chance.
Vegeta-time, he chuckled. He looked over at Chichi as she smiled
at him. The boys are at Bulmas, so shouldnt you be home with Rezu?
Getting caught up?
You mean having sex. Yes, she grinned. Rezu is on her way home now, so I
wont be around for the next day or two. I just came by for a recharge for the
baby.
He put his hands on her belly again and gave her a little more ki. The babys ki
jumped in response and he grinned. Take care of my daughter, Chi.
S- she began before realizing what he had said. Daughter? she
beamed. Really?
Think so maybe - feels different than the boys somehow.
He returned her happy hug, smiling bemusedly as she started chattering away with more
plans for the babys room. He knew he was shutting her out again as he studied the
forest, but she was so elated she probably didnt even notice. He inhaled sharply.
Chi, he said softly, interrupting her, not able to tear his eyes away,
Go home. Now.
Vegeta had returned.
TBC